go girl, go.

Resolutions.

Girl. — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 00:31:03 +0000

1. be more punctual! (look, i’m even late making RESOLUTIONS for crying out fucking loud)
2. lose the weight that i gained in the hospitals… and have kept for a year. ick.
3. up the grades. and attendance. big time.
4. make more art.
5. get my license.
6. get happy.
7. take my meds. and stay on them.
8. get tap lessons.
9. learn guitar. and/or piano.
10. start looking at colleges.
11. be more understanding.
12. save my money.
13. be more HELPFUL. to somebody.
14. start writing again. which is sort of why i got this. but now that i have it, i’m almost at a loss of what to write about.

Sonnet For a Friend

Girl. — Sun, 14 Jan 2007 05:04:59 +0000

we had to write a sonnet for a shakespeare class that i’m taking. i really hate writing with a formula, but this is what happened.
it’s about this friend. our entire friendship’s been based on exploring… everything. sex, drugs, rock n roll, the whole sha-bang.

You show me quite vividly what it is to live.
You open my eyes, but shut a part of my heart.
Without such feelings, I am free to further dive
And immerse myself wholly into this new part.

We’ll disappear and never know where we’ll turn out;
We forage new ways into my heart and your soul.
Round and round we go, same old silly fight about
How we can love then hate, without paying a toll.

We’re as hot and cold as arctic ice and fire:
Your scalding temper and my icy heart’s a team.
We could freeze and scorch the world if we so desire,
Potential in this pair is bursting at the seam.

But lest we forget the High Priestess and her Page,
The two of us express more kinship than outrage.

Ch-ch-cheat.

Girl. — Thu, 11 Jan 2007 01:27:20 +0000

What makes a person cheat?
Can you really whole-heartedly love someone and still cheat?
Do you do it out of hurt? Out of boredom?

And once it’s done, how do you fix it?
Do you tell them?
Say nothing and hope they never find out? Pretend like it never happened?